The mere idea of his wife, his Kitty, being in the same room with a common
wench, set him shuddering with horror and loathing.
Chapter 17
The hotel of the provincial town where Nikolay Levin was lying ill was
one of those provincial hotels which are constructed on the newest model of
modern improvements, with the best intentions of cleanliness, comfort, and
even elegance, but owing to the public that patronizes them, are with
astounding rapidity transformed into filthy taverns with a pretension of
modern improvement that only makes them worse than the old-fashioned,
honestly filthy hotels. This hotel had already reached that stage, and the
soldier in a filthy uniform smoking in the entry, supposed to stand for a
hall-porter, and the cast-iron, slippery, dark, and disagreeable staircase, and
the free and easy waiter in a filthy frock coat, and the common dining-room
with a dusty bouquet of wax flowers adorning the table, and filth, dust, and
disorder everywhere, and at the same time the sort of modern up-to-date
self-complacent railway uneasiness of this hotel, aroused a most painful
feeling in Levin after their fresh young life, especially because the
impression of falsity made by the hotel was so out of keeping with what
awaited them.
As is invariably the case, after they had been asked at what price they
wanted rooms, it appeared that there was not one decent room for them; one
decent room had been taken by the inspector of railroads, another by a
lawyer from Moscow, a third by Princess Astafieva from the country. There
remained only one filthy room, next to which they promised that another
should be empty by the evening. Feeling angry with his wife because what
he had expected had come to pass, which was that at the moment of arrival,
when his heart throbbed with emotion and anxiety to know how his brother
was getting on, he should have to be seeing after her, instead of rushing
straight to his brother, Levin conducted her to the room assigned them.
“Go, do go!” she said, looking at him with timid and guilty eyes.
He went out of the door without a word, and at once stumbled over
Marya Nikolaevna, who had heard of his arrival and had not dared to go in
to see him. She was just the same as when he saw her in Moscow; the same
woolen gown, and bare arms and neck, and the same good-naturedly stupid,
pockmarked face, only a little plumper.
“Well, how is he? how is he?”
“Very bad. He can’t get up. He has kept expecting you. He…. Are you …
with your wife?”
Levin did not for the first moment understand what it was confused her,
but she immediately enlightened him.
“I’ll go away. I’ll go down to the kitchen,” she brought out. “Nikolay
Dmitrievitch will be delighted. He heard about it, and knows your lady, and
remembers her abroad.”
Levin realized that she meant his wife, and did not know what answer to
make.
“Come along, come along to him!” he said.
But as soon as he moved, the door of his room opened and Kitty peeped
out. Levin crimsoned both from shame and anger with his wife, who had
put herself and him in such a difficult position; but Marya Nikolaevna
crimsoned still more. She positively shrank together and flushed to the
point of tears, and clutching the ends of her apron in both hands, twisted
them in her red fingers without knowing what to say and what to do.
For the first instant Levin saw an expression of eager curiosity in the eyes
with which Kitty looked at this awful woman, so incomprehensible to her;
but it lasted only a single instant.
“Well! how is he?” she turned to her husband and then to her.
“But one can’t go on talking in the passage like this!” Levin said, looking
angrily at a gentleman who walked jauntily at that instant across the
corridor, as though about his affairs.
“Well then, come in,” said Kitty, turning to Marya Nikolaevna, who had
recovered herself, but noticing her husband’s face of dismay, “or go on; go,
and then come for me,” she said, and went back into the room.
Levin went to his brother’s room. He had not in the least expected what
he saw and felt in his brother’s room. He had expected to find him in the
same state of self-deception which he had heard was so frequent with the
consumptive, and which had struck him so much during his brother’s visit
in the autumn. He had expected to find the physical signs of the approach of
death more marked—greater weakness, greater emaciation, but still almost
the same condition of things. He had expected himself to feel the same
distress at the loss of the brother he loved and the same horror in face of
death as he had felt then, only in a greater degree. And he had prepared
himself for this; but he found something utterly different.
In a little dirty room with the painted panels of its walls filthy with
spittle, and conversation audible through the thin partition from the next
room, in a stifling atmosphere saturated with impurities, on a bedstead
moved away from the wall, there lay covered with a quilt, a body. One arm
of this body was above the quilt, and the wrist, huge as a rake-handle, was
attached, inconceivably it seemed, to the thin, long bone of the arm smooth
from the beginning to the middle. The head lay sideways on the pillow.
Levin could see the scanty locks wet with sweat on the temples and tense,
transparent-looking forehead.
“It cannot be that that fearful body was my brother Nikolay?” thought
Levin. But he went closer, saw the face, and doubt became impossible. In
spite of the terrible change in the face, Levin had only to glance at those
eager eyes raised at his approach, only to catch the faint movement of the
mouth under the sticky mustache, to realize the terrible truth that this death-
like body was his living brother.
The glittering eyes looked sternly and reproachfully at his brother as he
drew near. And immediately this glance established a living relationship
between living men. Levin immediately felt the reproach in the eyes fixed
on him, and felt remorse at his own happiness.
When Konstantin took him by the hand, Nikolay smiled. The smile was
faint, scarcely perceptible, and in spite of the smile the stern expression of
the eyes was unchanged.
“You did not expect to find me like this,” he articulated with effort.
“Yes … no,” said Levin, hesitating over his words. “How was it you
didn’t let me know before, that is, at the time of my wedding? I made
inquiries in all directions.”
He had to talk so as not to be silent, and he did not know what to say,
especially as his brother made no reply, and simply stared without dropping
his eyes, and evidently penetrated to the inner meaning of each word. Levin
told his brother that his wife had come with him. Nikolay expressed
pleasure, but said he was afraid of frightening her by his condition. A
silence followed. Suddenly Nikolay stirred, and began to say something.
Levin expected something of peculiar gravity and importance from the
expression of his face, but Nikolay began speaking of his health. He found
fault with the doctor, regretting he had not a celebrated Moscow doctor.
Levin saw that he still hoped.
Seizing the first moment of silence, Levin got up, anxious to escape, if
only for an instant, from his agonizing emotion, and said that he would go
and fetch his wife.
“Very well, and I’ll tell her to tidy up here. It’s dirty and stinking here, I
expect. Marya! clear up the room,” the sick man said with effort. “Oh, and
when you’ve cleared up, go away yourself,” he added, looking inquiringly
at his brother.
Levin made no answer. Going out into the corridor, he stopped short. He
had said he would fetch his wife, but now, taking stock of the emotion he
was feeling, he decided that he would try on the contrary to persuade her
not to go in to the sick man. “Why should she suffer as I am suffering?” he
thought.
“Well, how is he?” Kitty asked with a frightened face.
“Oh, it’s awful, it’s awful! What did you come for?” said Levin.
Kitty was silent for a few seconds, looking timidly and ruefully at her
husband; then she went up and took him by the elbow with both hands.
“Kostya! take me to him; it will be easier for us to bear it together. You
only take me, take me to him, please, and go away,” she said. “You must
understand that for me to see you, and not to see him, is far more painful.
There I might be a help to you and to him. Please, let me!” she besought her
husband, as though the happiness of her life depended on it.
Levin was obliged to agree, and regaining his composure, and completely
forgetting about Marya Nikolaevna by now, he went again in to his brother
with Kitty.
Stepping lightly, and continually glancing at her husband, showing him a
valorous and sympathetic face, Kitty went into the sick-room, and, turning
without haste, noiselessly closed the door. With inaudible steps she went
quickly to the sick man’s bedside, and going up so that he had not to turn
his head, she immediately clasped in her fresh young hand the skeleton of
